Even though there are still opportunities to slice, I am a little grateful that today is the last day of the March challenge. Because right now I need deadlines and definite end goals to help me stay calm.
I’m a planner. I like to write things by hand in my paper planner (color-coded, obviously). I like to schedule out what I’m doing and when I’m doing it. I like to make lists and check things off…..I also like to write things on the list that I’ve already done so I can cross them off and look like I’m already making progress.
Yesterday, the governor of Pennsylvania announced that schools and businesses would now be closed “indefinitely”. This is not a word that is great for a planner. Indefinitely implies no definite end. It means that we don’t know when we can go back to that pre-Corona life. I like specificity. I like paper chains and calendars. I want to be able to put an end date to this madness.
I get that it’s not that easy. That no one really knows when this will all end. But that’s a really hard pill to swallow for a planner. For a calendar-maker. For someone who’s already on anti-anxiety medication and yet still feeling incredibly anxious.
So while I’m sad to see the challenge go, I’m also a little glad. Because this end date means that at least something is definite. At least I can plan on one thing. At least I can cross one thing off my list.