SOL Day 31- The Uncertainty of Indefinitely

slice-of-life_individualEven though there are still opportunities to slice, I am a little grateful that today is the last day of the March challenge.  Because right now I need deadlines and definite end goals to help me stay calm.

I’m a planner.  I like to write things by hand in my paper planner (color-coded, obviously).  I like to schedule out what I’m doing and when I’m doing it.   I like to make lists and check things off…..I also like to write things on the list that I’ve already done so I can cross them off and look like I’m already making progress.

Yesterday, the governor of Pennsylvania announced that schools and businesses would now be closed “indefinitely”.  This is not a word that is great for a planner.  Indefinitely implies no definite end.  It means that we don’t know when we can go back to that pre-Corona life.  I like specificity.  I like paper chains and calendars.  I want to be able to put an end date to this madness.

I get that it’s not that easy.  That no one really knows when this will all end.  But that’s a really hard pill to swallow for a planner.  For a calendar-maker.  For someone who’s already on anti-anxiety medication and yet still feeling incredibly anxious.

So while I’m sad to see the challenge go, I’m also a little glad.  Because this end date means that at least something is definite.  At least I can plan on one thing.  At least I can cross one thing off my list.

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